Talking

One of my favorite pastimes and probably the thing I was best at was talking, that makes my limited vocal ability a hard thing to get used to,  I worry that my new voice will make people think I am mentally impaired when that couldn't be farther from the truth, my mouth just can't keep up with my brain anymore some body in a support group said that I should use this as an opportunity to chose my words carefully, which I do, I choose the ones that are easy to say. I get very insecure when communicating on the phone or with someone who hasn't encountered me much since the incident I worry that they will think my intelligence level took a hit, along with everything else, it is just very difficult for me to communicate every thing I want to since my voice has no lilt to it anymore and Ican't get my mouth around my words, this causes me to feel trapped inside my body, totally unable to express my thoughts, feelings and fears, hence why this blog is so important to me.

Life Line

When Iwas 13 a friend of mine read my palm and gave me some news that has been stuck in my brain dince then. She told me that my life line split near the end and she took that to mean that Iwould make aedecision in my early 30s that woul dulimately end my life, since then and since I entered my 30s I've been on th lookout for decisions that could result in my early demise. before Igave birth Iwondered if that was it, almost was, reallyCould my mystical 13 year old friend have been right?Dostill need to be cautious in my decision-making now hat I've dodged that bullet?